artsetera

Dyona

2011-10-13T11:21:00.000-07:00

hangin

sa bula ay palaman,
tsuper sa kalawakan
hiningang buhay, tangan

retraction ni Rizal

kanyang buhay nilupig
kahit na nagpasupil
tunay ngang sakdal lupit

Kapa

kapag may nawawala
sa dilim ba sya'y bida?
sa pulis ito'y mukha.

Dapat

sakto sabi sa kanto
hustisya sa naloko
sa tawaran ay bibo

Luha

pinasikat ng aegis
"onse" sumunod sa dyis
sinong 'di maiinis?

'CO2'Bibo

ang usok sa tsubibo
sumobra ng 'CO2'
hangin merong delubyo.

Back up #1

2011-10-01T02:43:00.000-07:00

Dahil nga sa napagtripan kong maghalungkat at magorganizae ng files at sa naanood ko sa tv, gusto ko i-share ang maikling kwento na nasulat noong 2004 habang sariwa pa yung insidente.

Wala lang...

Duguan. Pasapasang mukha, braso, binti at gula gulanit na damit. Ito ang hitsura ng mamang pinagtulong tulungang bugbugin sa kanto dahil holdaper daw .
“Hindi ka maghanap buhay ng patas” wika ng isa.
“OO nga. Ninanakaw mo ang pinaghirapan naming pagtrabahuhan,” sagot naman ng aleng nakiki-usyoso.
Gusto ko rin sanang kumurot ng pinong pino kasi naging biktima din ako ng holdaper sa loob ng fx. Hanggang ngayon naalala ko pa rin yung pagtutok sa akin ng baril habang kinukuha yung bag ko. Simula noon, gumawa ako ng garter na pinaglalagyan ko ng cellphone at malaking halaga at itinatali ko sa binti ko tuwing uuwi na ako ng gabi. Naisip ko rin sanang magbenta ng ganoon. Kaya lang paano kung maging commercialized na eh hindi na rin magiging safe.
Ayoko rin namang makikorot kasi sa dami ng nakapila. Ewan ko kung gusto lang nilang makikurot din o magpa-picture kasama yung kawawang mama.
Buti na lang sa isip ko lang nasabi na kawawa yung mama. Kasi baka ako naman ang pagtulung-tulungan at tirintasin ang buhok ng pinong pino.
Masarap sanang isipin na kapag nakikurot ako eh para na rin akong nakaganti kung sino mang hudas na kawatan yung tumutok sa akin ng baril. Naisip ko, hindi naman siya yun. Isa pa, maari rin namang napagkamalan yung mama kasi nga sa sobrang emosyon ng tao, hindi na makapagisip ng makatwiran. Yung iba, hindi pa naman nananakawan, nakikibida lang.
Eh paano kung magnanakaw talaga?
Posible rin naman na sa matinding pangangailangan. Halimbawa kelangan ng gamut para sa nag-aagaw buhay na mahal sa buhay. Minsan sa buhay ng tao, nakakagawa ka ng pagkakamali sa maling sirkumstansya. Sino ba naman ang mananadyang gumawa ng masama sa iba?
Pwede rin namang ‘peer pressure.’ Yung bang para magpapansin eh gagawin lahat kahit na alam mong mali. Alam ko pwedeng mangyari yung ganito sa mga kabataang naghahanap ng identity. Pero sa isang nasa tamang gulang, insecurity tawag dun.
Maliban sa mga kadahilanang yun, mahirap paniwalaan na sasadyain ng isang tao ang gumawa ng masama sa iba. Mag-isip ng masama sa iba, instinct yun na ang posibleng reaksyon ay flight o fight . Pero hanggat walang aktual na konsekwensya, pwede mo pa ring itama ang gawa.
Natutukso tuloy akong paniwalaan yung sinabi ni Carl Sagan, “With nature, good people are doing good things, while evil people are doing evil things. But for a good person to do evil things, it takes religion” Minsan dahil sa pressure ng kinabibilangang grupo, kahit alam mong walang namang direktang ginawang masama sa iyo ang tao, nakikibugbog ka na rin at hindi umaawat kapag may pinagtutulong-tulungan.
Selfish? Hindi naman siguro. Ayaw lang sigurong lumabas sa comfort zone. At mag-isip outside the box.

Paraphrose

2010-06-28T00:36:00.000-07:00

I like the spark in my eyes
Magnified by the cute rectangular specs
It matches the shiny smile
That opens to show the uneven front teeth

The mole below my left eye lash
Stash the tears that seldom flash
I love the scar in the middle of my left cheek
Reminds me how I enjoyed the kid in me

My cute nose inhales the sweetness in air
Alarms me to see the truth it bears
I smell danger more than the wave
Words get blurred when it goes to my ear

My rounded face crowns the neck
I love it more it highlights the chin upheld
Because I know I have both the hemisphere in there
I reclaimed when I started to doubt and care

My petite structure lets me climb the wall
The trees, the pyramid instead to crawl
Because I can bear my weight where ever I want to go
I don’t worry I catch my breath in full

I love more because I know
Who I am, what can I do and can I offer
I am a reflection of myself
No need for alter-ego
To convince others of my worth

I am well, I am tame, I am modest, I do care
I don’t start a fight unless you push me to the cliff
I am straight forward, for some it is scary
I prefer this than to leave you in the “ere”

I only react to make a stand
I will not mean to hurt because I understand
I am patient though I seldom get sick
Because I prevent someone to be a jerk to me

I love the flowers, the butterflies and the ink
I use the brush to clean the messy ilk
My pen is mighty, it can become sticky
My passion colors any form of plastic

I am a child, a sister, a friend and a lover
Most importantly I am a woman to marvel
Be amazed I am not a disgrace
To humanity’s pride and prejudice

I love life, I love living, I am wise and giving
I can be a light to those who want to see
But first you have to be confident with yourself
So you won’t get offended by my tirade

I am fun, can be a pain in the isle
If you tried to convince me that you are nice
Convincing is done when you have to hide
I know it will be proven someday, somehow
Just don’t wait for others to verify my instinct.

I only plan to have 3 paragraphs
But as I type I like more the me I love
Now it’s 3 pages I can’t stop
I have lots of words that ripples inside

But I need to bid goodbye for now
It’s time to go for this moment in time
I need to move, read and play
Finish the art and the legacy it brings.

PAG-ASA

2010-06-27T00:01:00.000-07:00

Mahirap makita ang umaga
Bago pa man maalis ang muta ng iba
Yun bang alam mo na ang mangyayari
Kahit pa ang iba’y itinatanggi

Nalalala ko sa sawadi
Sa kumpulan merong sinabi
“pag lumapit ako, gugulo
Maghihiwa-hiwalay parang nakakita ng multo”

Sa pagtagni tagni ng dokumento
Nakita kong merong hindi totoo
Kailangang malaman ang kwento
sa likod ng pagtaas ng sweldo

Matatapos ang taon walang mangyayari
Dahil tanggap naman ng marami
Ibibigay din ang umento basta manalangin tayo
Eh mas malakas manalangin ang hin-di, ay talo.

Sa paglalaro sa pagdiriwang
Sa hulaan lumalaban
Sino ang lalabas sa pintuan at taguan
Probabilidad ba o kulam?

Bakit heto ngayon ang tema?
Dahil sa litrato masasawata
Sabay ang petsa kahit hindi ko nakita
Dahil abala sa tula at pagpintura

Nakikiangkas ba o nakakasagap
Ng hangin mula sa ulap
Malakas ba ang hinagap
O pareho lang ng utak?

--Madam Rosa
(on weather forecasting)

Moderation in Excess

2010-06-26T22:41:00.000-07:00

“Moderation is a fatal thing. Nothing succeeds like excess.” ~Oscar Wilde~

Moderation is the name of the game
As what Aristotle was telling
But look at the vanity in roam (sounds like that)
The ugly feeds on the irony

A dreamer who doesn't sleep for the sunrise to see
Imagines the world with less Sisyphus tragedy
Battle that protects life while kills and damage others
For Ares without death it is no longer a party

The art lives on even the creator is cold
Look at the writings of Sagan, Carlin and Hume
Sculptures stand sturdy it hides a personality
Waiting to be unveiled the weakness of humanity

Colors in canvas accentuate the black and white
Makes you travel back to past
A collage of it identifies the future
To set your mind of present’s adventure

Investment in children not lies in security
When you grown old to take care of you
It’s not about the name of the family
But how he survived with his individuality

Because that is the legacy one can teach
To stand on his own feet
To walk with others, living with heart and head uphold
Not a zombie who just follows orders

Moderation is the name of the game
But is excess only imaginary?
When authority gets away with it
Can corruption be tamed by cowardice?

Perspective

2010-06-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

Is it a woman in the middle
sitting gracefully?
Is it a man at the side
facing a smoky stride?

a blue flower afront
on the right and the left
connected by thread
to form a butterfly perspective

Momay

2010-06-23T01:14:00.000-07:00

Kailangan ko ba ng tagapagtanggol?
Hindi naman ako bopols.
Sanggalang ay tiwala sa sarili
Kahit pa magkampi kampi.

...Kunwari hindi interesado
Parinig naman doon, parinig dito
Paano magiging asintado?
Hindi kayang alamin ang totoo

Kaaliwan ko’y pagmasdan ang bisyo
Ang usapan tungkol sa “multo”
Hindi kaharap pero sentro
Nagkakaisa sa pagkatakot.

--Alay kay Momay

Courage Under Fire

2010-06-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

I am such in a good mood
when i saw the picture
in reader's digest page
it is about courage

for me, it is about frosty
will he claim the courage to entertain
or save himself and throw the pain
or try in next solstice again

will he be frozen as what he is?
a white form in front of the heat
will his substance survive the summer?
and melts to oblivion will be endured

Becoming

2010-06-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it's hard to understand
that I have lots of time
to create something beautiful at hand
out of my own precious kind

to some it's a memory lane
...to remember happy days
but it's not to bid goodbye
but to remind you of what you've become

i really find it funny
how people can be
does it really matter?
one can only see what is pre-conceived.

i love the colors cause my sight is blurred
i love pictures cause my memory fails
i love art, it gives me heart
More than the lip service of unnatural

i love rhyme it keeps me calm
in the drowning quicksand
it strengthens my able hand
to hold on my down-to-earth morals

don't expect me to wear your shade
i recognize shadow in the dark
my mental synapse worked
i can be a predator afront

Elusive Solution

2010-06-20T04:02:00.000-07:00

Let us refrain from blaming
the sides of the floor
Instead find our own solution
so peace may soar.
Instead of telling that others are so and so
why not go straight to the person
and find a conclusion.
Never assume nor be offended
because you never really know.
Unless you find certainty to a confusion
then worries somehow would be gone.

Although positive thoughts
reveal a negative situation,
it happens to everyone who has a 'soul'
Mind is powerful it can transform
More than the deception in 'highest form'.

First, admit the deep 'shite' situation.
From then finding a solution is acceptable.
Make changes even if it's awful.
The least we can do to be responsible.
Evolution is a natural phenomenon
that made us human sane and mindful.

I am Blessed (Not Just How the way you see it)

2010-06-20T03:43:00.001-07:00

I am blessed to be born in this world
To my mother and father that love me in deed
The favor is returned with respect and adore
Together with my siblings, we valiantly soar

I am blessed with cousins even though we seldom roam
Deep inside our bio the root is stored
Relatives come to celebrate the common
But we all have our own world to explore

Pride in numbers sometimes is great
Friends with quality deserve the keep
When the water is quiet the sea is “deep”
friendship is deep sea enjoying the wave,
transcending spirituality

Even I don’t use treat as trick
I accept it is a help
To bind people to have fun and accolade
Get them together and join the “charade”

I am blessed to be educated by mom and dad
More than the ABC, 123 and the first name tag
They let me learn more than what they allow
They are guiding me to have my own mind

I am blessed to be part of the chronicle
The friendship is more than skin deep
Variation in action, discussion keeps the heat
But we are one in times of deep “shit”

I am blessed to experience and love boyfriends
Catholics, Atheist, Buddhist, Agnostic,
and Jew for past relationships
I love dearly the Italian Hindi at present
But I remained to my faith in humanity
And its ability to love life's duality

I am blessed to find comfort in labor
To buy me food, shelter and wardrobe
But I find most comfort with my dignity uphold
to do “work of love” more than the “love of work”

Children relieves me from life’s stress
Their flexibility keeps me amazed
They cry when sad, in play they laugh
Seems to be oblivious of the time passed

Boy and girl of my own is wished
Soon it will be realized in being
As I think of children astray in the street
I wish to give them opportunity to live decently

I am blessed to experience vain and pain
And most importantly to keep away suffering in mind
I live with no regrets, I learn from mistakes
I am blessed to know everyone is blessed to just exist in this earth.

Aftermat

2010-06-18T04:00:00.000-07:00

When my mom was pregnant of me
her time was spent crocheting
she created table mats, curtains and bed sheet
to let the time past without waste

it takes patience, it takes toil
to create something, a source of joy
it's fulfilling, it's fun
to finish it just in time

I finally finished just in time for a swimming
in The Wave last night, oh exciting
Is it for that or just an aftermat?
What the heck, it's there
am enjoying the lure
to have another one soon

Accept

2010-06-15T21:18:00.000-07:00

I refuse to accept that humanity is evil
This nature entitled the church to save him from this hell
My self-esteem is re-gained when dignity is achieved
The moment I refused I was born a sinner

Human has flaws this I admit
It’s futile to show off good image only
This absolutism corrupts one’s soul and integrity
Causes change and betterment be buried deeply

I accept that one will never please everybody
Specially if the mantra is jealousy
But it doesn’t weaken the soul in me
I accept my good and bad, its beauty and ugly

This is why I am not affected
I live for my own amusement
Acceptance from others is a bonus to thank
It is not a requirement though to continue a passion

Be Offended

2010-06-13T21:32:00.000-07:00

SALVACION

2010-05-25T23:26:00.002-07:00

Simply the best
All in one treat
Loving mother
Victorius fighter
Always there
Come high or low
In your name a treasure
Oh, my Salvacion
No need hero but you, my mother

SALVACION

2010-05-25T23:26:00.001-07:00

21

2006-05-26T01:30:00.000-07:00

As your hand travels
the sensitive part ofmine exacerbates
yet nurturance crowns my chest
made me a full grown woman

We've stared at each naked self
for a couple of hours
waiting for excitation to roam the
core of being lass
In Adam's world - I despise

In solitaire, I feel and think green
freshly provides air
A minute of dream could bring
immortal hope and it seems

chaotic as it is when lobbying
is the truth head on
to change the conventional
But a few seconds affter the decision
Vertigo is all you've had

21 summers had passed
every hour of self seeking
hallucinations in every minute
and the seconds of changes

When the old becomes new
reborn all in just
a matter of time

As the wind blows

2006-05-26T01:26:00.000-07:00

As the wind blows
Lulled my angst within
caress thelips as it touches mine
soothes my agitated spirit

as i feel the wind blows
mesmerized by the joy of life
whilst hands grasped
envisioning

as I hear the wind blows
like the Angels in the Garden of Eden
whispering words of wisdom, perhaps

endowed life to a newlyborn child
rejuvenated, as fresh as the blooming rose
as the wind blows, the breath of life

now vaccilates
as the wind blows undecided
in perceiving
whether accept
it as cold as corpse
or hot as perdition

the wind that's now in your head
like the spear
peircing,
killing
as a polluted air
suffocates

A Pill of Eschew

2006-05-26T01:21:00.000-07:00

Trapped in a murky cell
Immune with theputrid perfume
of rotten dreams
no means to ends
but to peel
every inch of your self
'till you're bare

Nothing to lose for I have none
but memrie's of unknown past
Nothingto wish for I am dumbed
by themem'ries of concealed past

And this blurred system of mine
Albeit future-less
endows catharticescape

to censure
the vehement waves of change
its chaotic ends

ESCAPE

2006-05-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

The squared of several inches
Realizes my being
Gone from oblivion
That I made love
With ostentatious lover
Lover of peace
Lover that pissed

I embrace my cruelty
And felt the onerous caress
Perfected by my imperfection
I kissed his reason--
Breath of rose
And likened the taste of blood
in my hands
as seal of its thorns

Impregnated with cruelty
That gave birth to a love child
Together with its siblings
They ruled so wild

The delusion is ceased when
I see this squared of inches
As pure as a virgin
It's innocence hypnotizes
That let me scream
the primal pain

From then on I can smile again
And can face the world while
The purity of the virgin
Is daubed with the
ink of thought

Brokeback Mountain

2006-05-26T01:01:00.000-07:00

Every waking hours
Delighted by your smile
Wish you are here
A solace in fear
Red enticing lips
Dwell a fountain of sweets
Beyond every whisper
Utters blissful peace
Songs echo in a amorous melody
Trees dance in beautiful harmony
In you I found Midas
Leaving everything in perfect stance
Love, lust and life
Offer simple lull
Saving an intricate skull

One magical Night

2006-03-06T03:06:00.000-08:00

Over a bottle of beer
Chatting along Manila Bay
Senses overhear
Every wheeze, in need of air
Roamed the possibility
Of the prime need to gain
Lest the intricacies
Set along the way
Engaged now in head blowing bliss
Missing my ivory peace
All I have given
Just to keep you prince
Only to be haunted by mind boggling guilt
Lusting love affair
Often than not engage you in tears
Hoping for something rather not dare
Commiting again when already have cared
O truly so complicated but
Please, utter how honestly worthy it is!
rtv

Kuyugan

2004-11-27T02:28:00.000-08:00

Duguan. Pasapasang mukha, braso, binti at gula gulanit na damit. Ito ang hitsura ng mamang pinagtulong tulungang bugbugin sa kanto dahil holdaper daw .
“Hindi ka maghanap buhay ng patas” wika ng isa.
“OO nga. Ninanakaw mo ang pinaghirapan naming pagtrabahuhan,” sagot naman ng aleng nakiki-usyoso.
Gusto ko rin sanang kumurot ng pinong pino kasi naging biktima din ako ng holdaper sa loob ng fx. Hanggang ngayon naalala ko pa rin yung pagtutok sa akin ng baril habang kinukuha yung bag ko. Simula noon, gumawa ako ng garter na pinaglalagyan ko ng cellphone at malaking halaga at itinatali ko sa binti ko tuwing uuwi na ako ng gabi. Naisip ko rin sanang magbenta ng ganoon. Kaya lang paano kung maging commercialized na eh hindi na rin magiging safe.
Ayoko rin namang makikorot kasi sa dami ng nakapila. Ewan ko kung gusto lang nilang makikurot din o magpa-picture kasama yung kawawang mama.
Buti na lang sa isip ko lang nasabi na kawawa yung mama. Kasi baka ako naman ang pagtulung-tulungan at tirintasin ang buhok ng pinong pino.
Masarap sanang isipin na kapag nakikurot ako eh para na rin akong nakaganti kung sino mang hudas na kawatan yung tumutok sa akin ng baril. Naisip ko, hindi naman siya yun. Isa pa, maari rin namang napagkamalan yung mama kasi nga sa sobrang emosyon ng tao, hindi na makapagisip ng makatwiran. Yung iba, hindi pa naman nananakawan, nakikibida lang.
Eh paano kung magnanakaw talaga?
Posible rin naman na sa matinding pangangailangan. Halimbawa kelangan ng gamut para sa nag-aagaw buhay na mahal sa buhay. Minsan sa buhay ng tao, nakakagawa ka ng pagkakamali sa maling sirkumstansya. Sino ba naman ang mananadyang gumawa ng masama sa iba?
Pwede rin namang ‘peer pressure.’ Yung bang para magpapansin eh gagawin lahat kahit na alam mong mali. Alam ko pwedeng mangyari yung ganito sa mga kabataang naghahanap ng identity. Pero sa isang nasa tamang gulang, insecurity tawag dun.
Maliban sa mga kadahilanang yun, mahirap paniwalaan na sasadyain ng isang tao ang gumawa ng masama sa iba. Mag-isip ng masama sa iba, instinct yun na ang posibleng reaksyon ay flight o fight . Pero hanggat walang aktual na konsekwensya, pwede mo pa ring itama ang gawa.
Natutukso tuloy akong paniwalaan yung sinabi ni Carl Sagan, “With nature, good people are doing good things, while evil people are doing evil things. But for a good person to do evil things, it takes religion” Minsan dahil sa pressure ng kinabibilangang grupo, kahit alam mong walang namang direktang ginawang masama sa iyo ang tao, nakikibugbog ka na rin at hindi umaawat kapag may pinagtutulong-tulungan.
Selfish? Hindi naman siguro. Ayaw lang sigurong lumabas sa comfort zone. At mag-isip outside the box.

for you II

2004-06-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

Winning a heart
Is your perfect art
Never to cease
cherishing ev'ry piece
Happy moment is what you dear
enjoying life is not a fear
leaving behind all the aches
likened the challenges ahead
enjoying everything with you oh babe
rtv